Today, I will let myself enjoy what is good. I don’t have to wreck my good day or good feeling; I don’t have to let others spoil it either.
The Language of Letting Go
Things I am enjoying today:
And…I’m blessed to not have anyone in my life to wreck it.
I can’t tell you how much of a relief that is.
Help me remember that frustrations and confusion usually precede growth. If my situation is challenging me, it is because I’m learning something new, rising to a higher level of understanding. Help me be grateful, even in my frustration, that life is an exciting progression of lessons.
The Language of Letting Go
Grrrr….the hulk struggles to stay locked away, especially lately.
Things I can do to curb him:
And perhaps, I just need to realise that it’s just a learning experience.
Today, I will combine the principles of gratitude for what I have with the belief that I deserve the best. If there is no good reason to deprive myself, I won’t.
The Language of Letting Go
What, exactly, are the principles of gratitude?
I feel like perhaps I grumble too much.
Shouldn’t you be truthful to how you feel, rather than forcing yourself to be fake?
Maybe I don’t grumble too much, but just cut myself some slack.
Does that mean that I’m being ungrateful?
Help me let go of my need to be afraid. Replace it with a need to be at peace. Help me listen to my healthy fears and relinquish the rest.
The Language of Letting Go
Be not afraid
Of what the future holds
Of what it would feel like
To let go of all that feels familiar
Be not afraid
To step into the unknown
To venture onto the tightrope
While battling a phobia of heights
Be not afraid
To leap into uncertainty
And fly through the air
Without checking the parachute
Watching the ground fast-approaching
Today, I will do one activity or behavior that I know will create a good feeling for me. If I’m uncertain about what I like, I will experiment with one behavior today.
The Language of Letting Go
One of the good things that have come out of the past few years is that I have discovered what interests me and what I enjoy doing – be it reading, writing, learning new things, spending time with my family, watching a good movie/show or simply talking to friends. Every day, as per N’s advice, I do something to “indulge” myself – something completely, wholly, 100% for me.
Today, I will exchange a controlled life for one that is manageable
The Language of Letting Go
There’s a lot in this book about control, eh. I wonder what control has to do with abusive relationships – when I was with Voldy I certainly had no control over anything – rather I was completely controlled. Perhaps after relinquishing total control, the knee-jerk reaction is to then feel a need to control everything.
Do I have this need? Really, do I? If I consider, deep down, what my needs are, is one of them to control? I think one is to avoid pain, which manifests as control. I mean, jeez, how many setbacks does a woman have to go through? I think of the whole school of thought that consists of something along the lines of “there are others that are in much worse situations”, but I feel like instead, one should celebrate what one has overcome. Oh dear, I just used the third person.
However, there are people in worse situations, and of course there are people in better situations. And then there’s me – my journey, my lessons, my happiness, my sadness…which I don’t wish to compare to others. So rather than aim to control – I’ll aim to take a back seat, take the ups as they come and the downs as they come.
If I get hurt? That’s life I guess. I’ve overcome it before, I can do it again.
Today, help me pay attention to all my recovery issues. Help me know that before I can work on the finer points of my recovery, such as my relationships, I must be free of addictive behaviors.
The Language of Letting Go
Thankfully, I have never felt the lure of addictions.
Unless you count chocolate.
Then I’m an addict that would sell my soul for my next fix.
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