Today, I will remember that there is no situation that can’t be benefited by taking care of myself.
The Language of Letting Go
Taking care of my involves focusing on my dreams, my visions and not focusing on my past.
Author: Mariya (Page 12 of 40)
Today, I will wait, if waiting is the action I need in order to take care of myself. I will know that I am taking a positive, forceful action by waiting until the time is right. Help me let go of my fear, urgency, and panic. Help me learn the art of waiting until the times is right. Help me learn timing.
The Language of Letting Go
Timing is a curious thing. Over the course of my (relatively short) life thus far, things seem to have happened at the right time. Of course, at the time life felt like it was crumbling, and it was – but it was crumbling at the right time.
So for the things that haven’t happened yet to me, I need to hang on to this thought – that everything happens at the right time.
It’s just a matter of sitting tight and waiting.
Today, I will consider whether a deadline might be helpful in some area in my life.
The Language of Letting Go
I struggled with deadlines in relationships – twice. Perhaps I need to stop getting involved with commitment phobes and psychopaths. Actually, DEFINITELY the latter.
I hate being in ambiguous territory – maybe it’s a lack of confidence, skeletons in my closet that haven’t been dealt with or a need for control, but that feeling of the unknown doesn’t sit well with me.
Maybe it’s me, maybe it’s them.
I know for sure that a healthy, adult relationship won’t make me feel like I am unsure of where I stand. So rather than setting deadlines, I think I just need to walk away from people who I feel I need to set a deadline for.
Essentially, I need to stop giving away my power.
Today, help me to let go of my resistance to change. Help me be open to the process. Help me believe that the place I’ll be dropped off will be better than the place where I was picked up. Help me surrender, trust and accept, even if I don’t understand.
The Language of Letting Go
I came across (and was sent) a couple of quotes that I absolutely fell in love with, so I thought I would share them here.
Why yes, that’s precisely what I’m trying to do.
Perhaps I shouldn’t judge all people based on a couple of bad apples and restore my faith in innate goodness.
Today, I will understand that I hold the key to my freedom. I will stop participating in my oppression and victimisation. I will take responsibility for myself, and let others do as they may.
The Language of Letting Go
Again, a pertinent post for me. Yesterday night, I had another pity party. I cried, vented, got sympathy, gave myself sympathy and fueled the fire of victimisation. I knew what I was doing to myself as I did it and today I woke up feeling deflated, upset and angry. It revived feelings that I haven’t had in quite some time and has ended up being detrimental to me.
What are the payoffs for being the victim? Empathy from others for sure, but the biggest payoff was validation that what I went through was bad. In JF’s words “horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible” and “awful awful awful abuse”. I needed to hear that. I needed to remind myself, or rather be reminded, that I was a victim. Why? As I reflect on this question, I don’t really have a clear answer. For comfort, for validation and to create an understanding of how hurt I truly was/still am. An explanation for why I do what I do.
I don’t want to be silent – I want that understanding. My story deserves to be told and I deserve to be listened to. If it gives me that brief moment of sympathy/empathy, to me that’s worth the fallout the next day.
Today, I feel okay with allowing myself to slip back into victim mode, as infrequent as it is. It briefly takes away my freedom, but when I think about it, it gives me freedom. It lets others see how my wings are slightly burnt so that they understand if I don’t fly so high. In a way, I take responsibility for myself, yet I also control feeling a victim – which I suppose is a way of not being a victim, because I have control over it, which by definition then removes being a victim – if you follow my (slightly convoluted) logic.
So I think that yesterday, I did have freedom, because I chose to feel the way I did. And I’m fine with that.
Today, help me love myself. Help me let go of feeling excessively responsible for those around me. Show me what I need to do to take care of myself and be appropriately responsible to others.
The Language of Letting Go
